You made an adoption plan for your child to have a family. To have their Emotional, Financial, and Spiritual needs met. You "LOVED" an made the biggest sacrifice a woman can make. To not think of self, But sacrifice your deep love for your baby "TO HAVE" all of it's needs met. I have done the same as you. I made that adoption plan in the sixth month of my crisis pregnancy over 30 years ago. Now after the placement I was left with empty hands, a empty heart. With my sane mind I knew I did the very best for her. But, in all honesty if I would have went on heart feelings I would have ran with her. To be with me, and she and I would have never been apart. That was not God's plan. Being the strong Christian Young Woman that I was at the time of her conception. I knew deep in my heart with the very "LOVE, MERCY and Grace" of my ALMIGHTY LORD AND SAVIOR that only "JESUS" could understand my post-adoption blues and pain. Only JESUS could mend that hurt! So deep was the loss and grief. Only God's son could carry me through the pain and to the other side. The scripture below carried me, It carry's me to this day in all my anxieties or trials in this life.
Philippians 4:6-11
New International Version (NIV)
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
If you are suffering post-adoption placement issues, Grief - Reach out to the many Resources available to you. Contact http://www.birthmothersunite.com/ - Other awesome groups formed and doing amazing healing loving work for birth mothers and birth parents are Blessings in a Basket, Birth Mother Baskets, and http://www.justbirthparents.com/about.html No you are never alone. Also check out http://birthmombuds.com/ . Don't stay stuck. Join in with us - we are all on facebook also. My Birth Mothers Unite group is the official site. There is another one that used the same name. Both are fantastic online support groups.
Remember in all things God has his own timing. Like the above statement says. I have learned in his timing he will take you places you never dreamed you could get nor achieve! In his timing, All you have to do is have FAITH, Faith as small as a mustard seed. Can even get you there!
Hope to see you or hear from you. By Lucy Franklin, CPAC http://www.birthmothersunite.com/
