I'll be HAPPY WHEN? Does this question pop into your mind often? I will be the first to say I have had this one coming out of my mind and mouth often through out my 52 years of life. As a teen I couldn't wait to be GROWN and married. I did marry at the tender age of nineteen and that marriage ended quickly in divorce, All because of I'll be HAPPY WHEN! That was when I was not suppose to have married. I did not have the maturity to have taken on a marriage, Household and all the other responsibilities that come with being married and responsible at nineteen. So there went my I'll be HAPPY WHEN right to divorce court at the age of twenty-one. You know now looking back I was living my life LOST, Flying through as my Mother would say on my skirt tale, Or as my Father would say I lived my life to the beat of my OWN DRUM. I FEARED NOTHING, Thought I was HAPPY, Even when I was chasing I'll be HAPPY WHEN! No longer than separating from my hubby I was on the hunt for the NEXT LOVE to fill the void. I'll be HAPPY WHEN! That was my MOTTO. Then in denial about my life and searching for LOVE, I am hit with an unplanned pregnancy. Unplanned by me, But PLANNED by GOD! No I am not some religious NUT. I am not religious, I have this magnificent relationship with Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior. He was going to rescue me through this pregnancy. He knows how to get our attention. He had mine FAST! All the ugly stopped immediately when I found out that I was carrying my "PRECIOUS" as I called her. Then My I'll Be Happy WHEN changed into a beautiful selfless focus. Off of me and on to she. I just felt all along that I was having a girl, and I did! I focused on taking excellent prenatal care of myself. The I'll be Happy when left my mind completely. My confident through out the pregnancy was my immediate family and JESUS CHRIST! I talked often to him day and night. To give me the strength to make the best decision for my "Precious". The answer to this came in my sixth month of pregnancy. By staying in constant relationship with Jesus on a personal level. He guided me and gave me straight from his word - Lucy for when you are WEAK I am STRONG. That was my portion daily that is my portion to this day. For when I am weak, MY JESUS IS FOREVER STRONG! He lives in ME, he guides me to make RIGHT decisions. I did listen to my Jesus, and made an adoption plan and placed my "PRECIOUS" with a FAMILY in 1981. Born unto me this CHILD I BORE for ANOTHER MOTHER. This child that I adored then and today. I know longer say I'll be HAPPY WHEN? For "HAPPY" is something you chase, Happy is just a feeling that cannot be achieved without disappointment. What I am now is Content. I am content rather my portion is MUCH or Small. My peace does not come from this world, My peace comes from KNOWING that I am LOVED by my Creator - As God the Father, The Son and the Holy Ghost.
So When are you going to be HAPPY??? You don't have to wait for WHEN, You can have it all NOW! Everyday! Seek the TRUTH, You shall find. It's all in his word, The Holy Bible.
Right this very minute I am going through a TRIAL - The I'll Be Happy When's started! I am facing TKR in both Knee's. I am in constant extreme pain daily. It wore me down emotionally and physically. I was trying to get through it ON MY OWN! I'd pray when I felt like it, but most often I was too worn down to pray. So just like 30 years ago when I was in the unplanned, this severe osteo-arthritis bone on bone KNEEZLE problem as I call it broke me to go straight to the MIGHTY PHYSICIAN! I began to pray, I spent all Sunday in constant communication with the MIGHTY PHYSICIAN Jesus Christ. I had to lay it on the LINE, Repentance was first, I spewed it all out. He knew, He already knew! Because he KNOWS all and SEE's ALL. Don't ever think for one minute that he doesn't. He is just waiting for you to have enough faith and courage to bring it all to him, then TRUST. My first surgery is planned for Oct. 17th. I'll keep all updated. I ask that you join me in this journey in prayer for my complete and quick recover. I ask that if you have a NEED that you post that need here in the comments section. We will join together in prayer, One for another! He's listening. He LOVES us unconditionally! HE CARES, No When's about it! He always CARES for his children!!!
To pray is nothing more involved than to open the door, giving Jesus access to our needs and permitting "HIM" to exercise HIS own power in dealing with them. O Hallesby
That God in all things may be glorified through Jesus Christ.
1 Peter 4:11
Right this very minute I am going through a TRIAL - The I'll Be Happy When's started! I am facing TKR in both Knee's. I am in constant extreme pain daily. It wore me down emotionally and physically. I was trying to get through it ON MY OWN! I'd pray when I felt like it, but most often I was too worn down to pray. So just like 30 years ago when I was in the unplanned, this severe osteo-arthritis bone on bone KNEEZLE problem as I call it broke me to go straight to the MIGHTY PHYSICIAN! I began to pray, I spent all Sunday in constant communication with the MIGHTY PHYSICIAN Jesus Christ. I had to lay it on the LINE, Repentance was first, I spewed it all out. He knew, He already knew! Because he KNOWS all and SEE's ALL. Don't ever think for one minute that he doesn't. He is just waiting for you to have enough faith and courage to bring it all to him, then TRUST. My first surgery is planned for Oct. 17th. I'll keep all updated. I ask that you join me in this journey in prayer for my complete and quick recover. I ask that if you have a NEED that you post that need here in the comments section. We will join together in prayer, One for another! He's listening. He LOVES us unconditionally! HE CARES, No When's about it! He always CARES for his children!!!
To pray is nothing more involved than to open the door, giving Jesus access to our needs and permitting "HIM" to exercise HIS own power in dealing with them. O Hallesby
That God in all things may be glorified through Jesus Christ.
1 Peter 4:11
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